Mood swing

people forget fairytales. 

so sleeping beauty sleeps, waiting and waiting

for a prince that will never come,

till her bed breaks, and her dress got old and tattered. 

i once read a story, about a beautiful queen. 

she was very beautiful and admired by many. then one day, a king from the neighbouring kingdom sent her a gorgeous flower. after seeing it, she was angry and had it sent back.

when her subjects asked her why she sent it back, she said "it is beautiful flower, but it has no fragrance." 

what is a flower without its fragrance?

its a human without a heart, a chair without legs, a butterfly without wings. 

because its fragrance attract the bees, so that nectar can be produced, so that baby flowers can grow.

but this flower has no fragrance, so in a way, its useless. the king was saying that the beautiful queen was useless.

but at least, at least the flower has its beauty. useless as it may be, it was still admired and looked upon. whereas, the plain flowers, with all their fragrances were overlooked.

 

sometime, i think, the hardest thing to cope with is being average. 

averagism is a disease that most people have. myself including. :( 

Dear occupants of the world, 

i appreciate u being nice and caring and all but please do not force ur opinions on me. even if i am doing the most incorrect thing on earth, the fact that i am doing it means that i have subjected myself to this. so, even if u think that i m being totally silly and stupid, just let me be. if i dont like it, i ll find a way out myself. i LOATHE situations where people tell me that i am making a bad decision. ITS MY DECISION. right or wrong, i will handle the consequences. right or wrong, its my problem. unless it affects ur lives, dont stop me from what i have decided to do. 

the more u say dont, the more i will do it. because i hate being forced. i will do the opposite, so DONT. DONT MAKE ME DO THINGS I DONT WANT TO DO. dont make me do things i will regret later. dont make me hate u, and then hate myself for hating u.

so leave me alone. 

i m moody. i suck

Friends = happiness

dear Juliet, 
I just want to say, its okay. I think, maybe, i dont really need a romeo. 

Cos i think i have the bestest friends in the world. i have them, omg they're perfect! Absolutely!! and my crazy, irritating family. i think maybe, just maybe, i have enough.

so if u re having a shortage on Juliet please, feel free to give them all the emo Edward Cullen of the world.
but of course, if u have a spare (hot) one, i dont mind taking her either.

Love

although Juliet, i must say, it would be REALLY cool, if we could ALL have super powers. 

like...

i ll have everlasting beauty like...i dont know...fairy tale

Kiya can be...BATGIRL (I mean batman but in this case batman is the girl, so batgirl). (cos bats are kind of related to chickens, arent they? i mean they both have wings)

Bule ...i dont know...she should be...ELASTIC GIRL. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Wellya  ...hmmm...this is a tough one...HAPPY FEET!! (i know this isnt a super power, but i dont care! happy feet is cute and stupid. like them. hahahaha plus i cant give rachel cheng superpowers she ll bully me)

Edha and Intan DONT GET SUPERPOWERS COS THEY RE ALREADY SILENTLY PERSON HAHA.

Ceha ...hmmmmm...she can be...PERCY JACKSON AND THE NOISY THIEF. HAHAHAHA

Our bet

This time, I'll tell you my experience, regarding the betting game between me and my bestfriend. So that the reader doesnt get bored and certainly curious, isn't it? Hehe, let's start.

Kali ini, saya dan teman saya (Identitas masih dirahasiakan) pergi ke tempat ini. Brussel Spring ini sejenis lounge yang mempunyai tema yang unik dan atmosphere nya cozy.

Sebenarnya taruhan ini berawal dari teman saya yang memesan teh yang memiliki rasa 'khas'. Entah kami yang kampungan, tidak tahu selera, atau memang rasa teh nya yang aneh. Lupakan saja, karena kami mahasiswa bukan chef ataupun juri dalam ajang masak hehe. Teh tersebut bernama 'Blossom Tea' Karena memang teh nya berbentuk bunga yang mengembang didalam teko yang berisi air panas. Lalu, kamu tinggal menuangkan saja teh nya kedalam cangkir yang sudah disediakan. Dan, betapa beruntungnya saya, teh tersebut dipesan oleh teman saya, haha.

Teman saya membawa kartu remi. Mulailah kami bermain 'cangkulan', karena kami hanya berdua saja. Dari situ saya sendiri mencetuskan ide untuk bermain 'cangkulan' dengan mempunyai konsekuensi. Yang kalah harus menghabiskan teh tersebut. Hahaha, well, teman saya setuju, perang dimulai!

Mari perkenalkan kedua peserta kali ini. Peserta pertama adalah :

Ini adalah saya sendiri.

Nama : Akbar Fajri

Panggilan : Abay

Umur : 20 Tahun

Status : Mahasiswa

Penghasilan : Tergantung orang tua

Suku : Jawa

Watak : Hangat, pekerja keras, luhur budi pekerti.

Sekarang, perkenalkan peserta kedua adalah :

Nah ini adalah teman saya yang saya rahasiakan identitasnya tadi

Nama : Raysita Sidik

Panggilan : Cicik

Umur : 20Tahun

Status : Mahasiswa + Asisten Rumah Tangga (Pendatang dari luar kota)

Penghasilan : Tergantung orang tua

Suku : Medan

Watak : Keras, pekerja keras, logat suara medan asli.

Nah ini dia blossom tea alias poison yang menjadi hadiah bagi si yang kalah.

Rasanya, sangatlah aneh dan tidak bisa dideskripsikan lebih lanjut, untuk anda yang penasaran, silahkan coba sendiri.

Sekarang, taruhan dimulai dengan permainan kartu. Dan entah mengapa, waktu yang dibutuhkan dalam permainan begitu lama, mungkin karena ada reinforcement untuk kali ini haha.

Nah foto ini adalah 20 menit sudah berlalu permainan kami. Semangatnya masih membara.

Nah foto ini adalah 40 menit sudah berlalu, Semangatnya sudah mulai kendor. Entah kenapa rasanya pasrah siapapun itu yang menjadi loser.

Dan permainan pun terus berlanjut, tidak lama dari 40 menti tersebut, akhirnya pemenang muncul!

Pemenangnya adalah AKBAR! alias saya sendiri, hahahahahahaha. It mean, saya tidak usah meneguk poison tersebut! Lanjut! Mau tau ekspresi teman saya ketika dia meneguk kekalahan. Check it out!

Nah ini dia posion yang sudah dihabiskan teman saya alias cicik. Hahahaha, Saya pun tidak tahu rasa nya bagaimana dia harus menghabiskan setengah cangkir besar tersebut, dan seperti terlihat pada gambar, cangkir tersebut sudah habis. Nah mau liat keadaan cicik, ayo kita lihat bersama, count down.

3.............

2............

1...........

Ini dia!! hahahahahah lihat teko nya ia pegang, dan sudah habis.

Nah ini dia yang kami tunggu-tunggu. Inilah loser dari taruhan kami berdua, hahaha lihat ekspresinya. Dia pasrah dan entah apa reaksi yang terjadi di dalam perutnya setelah meneguk habis teh aneh itu.

Well, the experience I had with one of my best friends. Thanks for keep reading, readers :)

Regards!



Me

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.  You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.  You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

Tired

tired of crying. tired of trying. tired of putting in effort to keep people in my life when they just don't want to be there. i shouldn't have to fight for a spot in anyone's life. why should i try so hard when i don't mean anything to them anymore? its not like i didn't try my best. it just kept failing to a point where i don't think i should try anymore. i'm trying too hard. tired. really exhausted. people are just too disappointing sometimes.

i'm sorry my friends. i'm very extremely sorry to those that care and got worried. i'm just not a very strong person. i thank you all for all you guys have done for me. i love all of you really. don't ever leave me please. thank you and sorry for making you all so worried and sleepless. i'm really sorry i owe you all everything i can offer to owe hahaha. thank you. really.

right now i'm so tired i don't even bother to think about all those things that are making me sad. i don't want to solve those problems anymore. they can just remain in a small corner of me until i find the strength to solve everything again. when those people want to.

i need an escape. i need a holiday, i need one very extremely badly. anyone on for a holiday? let's go tgt? :) call me ok hehehe or text me i want to go on a long holiday. like at least a week or smth.

beautiful ppl

Today.........its going to be a long, wordy post (again). This time its (possibly) going to be even longer than all my previous posts. I used to think blogging with a lot of words is actually kinda pointless because, hey, who's going to be so free to read that chunk of who-knows-what-you're-trying-to-say-crap-its-all-complaints-anyway right? Then I realise that I'm blogging for myself. To release all the pent-up frustration/stress/angst/whatever. If I even have readers, I thank each and every single one because I know y'all are my beloved friends! ♡

Firstly, friends. I'm so afraid of letting anyone in already. By that I don't mean another random dude that's going to capture my heart and break it in the end again, but just anyone that even wants to be my friend. All the people you love, will let you down. And vice versa, you will also be a letdown to the people you love in one way or another. I don't want to let down the people I love, neither do I want to be let down. So many things have been happening these days, I wonder when its ever going to end. I treasure each and every person I'm friends with, aquaintance or best bud. I cry a lot whenever I lose someone in my life. I don't know why I'm such a softie. I may be guilty of saying harsh things - so harsh they may ruin everything I ever have with that someone I was harsh to. But everytime after I say all that mean crap, I feel guilty and bad even if I wasn't so much in the wrong. No, I am not saying that I don't have faults at all, I do. 

Anyway, I just want to say that I am very thankful for the people who have stuck around since I knew you. Really. I appreciate each and every one of you a truckload I don't know what I did to deserve y'all. Thank you thank you thank you!!!!!!!! ♡♡♡

Mengukur Eksistensi

 

Sejauh mana Anda eksis di dunia internet? Ini pertanyaan menggelitik namun grudgingly banyak blogger yang tertarik. Dan kini ada cara yang lumayan konyol namun menurut saya sahih juga.

Bukalah situs Google (anda gagal dalam eksistensi tahap dasar bila masih menanyakan URL). Google kini dilengkapi dengan instrumen "suggestion" yang akan memberikan beberapa alternatif bersamaan dengan Anda mengetik. Inilah barometer eksistensi.

Coba ketik nama Anda. Semakin eksis Anda, Google hanya membutuhkan sedikit mungkin karakter untuk menampilkan nama di barisan suggestion. Vice versa. Anda yang tidak ngetop butuh mengetikkan semua huruf yang ada di nama Anda.

Barack Obama butuh 5 huruf diketik (B-A-R-A-C) sebelum Google menampilkan suggestion yang tepat. Untuk itu ia patut iri kepada fenomena Bieber. Hanya mengetik J-U, Google telah mendapatkan Justin Bieber dalam kolom sugesti.

Dalam konteks lokal, Presiden SBY hanya butuh 4 huruf untuk memunculkan "Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono". Aktris Agnes Monica yang sejak lama ingin eksis internasional boleh berbangga. Cobalah ketik A-G, maka Agnes akan muncul bersamaan dengan Agni Pratistha dan Agung Podomoro. Ini jelas "mengalahkan" Anggun yang membutuhkan empat huruf sebelum ditampilkan Google.

Suggestion ini merupakan hasil rangkuman entry yang ada dikandung Google (alamat URL, situs dan sebagainya), ditambah dengan kecenderungan nama atau kata tersebut diketik di bar pencarian. Di satu masa, ketika heboh dengan videonya, Luna Maya bisa muncul bahkan ketika kita mengetik huruf L! Sekarang effort sedikit bertambah karena harus menambahkan U-N sebelum si cantik muncul.

Nah, kini cobalah mengukur eksistensi Anda. Saya sendiri membutuhkan 10 huruf sebelum nama "Akbar Fajri" muncul. Ya, itu semua huruf dan satu spasi! Rupanya saya tidak begitu beken di dunia maya.